So, I was watching reality tv tonight, and I saw something that really bothered me.
The lady was on a reality tv dating show. She had a lot of money, and she wanted a good looking guy. He wanted her money. She paid for dinner, and she agreed to help him in his endeavors economically. It was so sad to watch.
It got me thinking....as a big woman who was not raised in a family full of big women or with positive big women as role models, I did not learn how I should interact with men when it comes to dating.
I tend to be very assertive, and I often offer to go dutch or sometimes even pay for the date. I was never taught not to, and I just thought it was normal. As I have done more soul searching, I realize that I do try to do so much in a relationship as a way to maybe make up for imperfections I have.
I wonder, how many of us, as big women, have not been taught our value as women in society? I often have friends talk about how men salivate over what we have to offer (ahem, sex), but often, I find that I am jumping up and down in the middle of the street with a sign and having very few guys, except for some weirdos and the rare really cool guy, even pay me any attention.
Over time, as a big woman, many of us may not have had the normal dating experiences, at least in terms of having a lot of attention.
Have any of you, honestly, ever felt the dreaded d-word----desperate? And do you think that feeling is more a result of how you are raised or how society views us, versus our true strength and beauty and all of the good things that we possess?