Hello to my Forum, and welcome to all the new folks! Thanks for sharing your background. I second maryann's comment: You will find peace here.
Thanks to all for the supportive comments on my Off Plan Eating-On Plan Writing days. Getting back on track this weekend was harder than I thought it would be. Saturday was more Off-Plan eating, which I could feel bad about, but the DP and I had an amazing day. Part of the goodness of the day was the food we ate. Not necessarily "bad" food -- we shared everything, including one beer, and we made relatively healthy choices -- but just unplanned and spontaneous. Again, this is part of what made the day so special.
BUT, here's what really made the day so wonderful: We trekked out to San Pedro CA (our favorite beach spot in the LA area) and took a whale watching cruise about seven miles out into the Pacific. Now is the time of year that the gray whale is migrating off our coast (they come relatively close to shore, to avoid the Orca pods). It was freezing (okay, nothing like you snow-bound folks, but still cold), but delightful with the salt wind blowing in our faces, the calm but still powerful swells moving deep beneath us, the evening fog moving in . . . Just gorgeous. And we saw a gray whale giving birth to her calf! A very rare event, but amazing to see the roiling waves, then the calf emerge, and the mother whale pushing it to the surface over and over, teaching it how to come up for air. We felt so blessed.
If it makes any sense, I think the beauty and blessing of the day enabled me to get back on track yesterday, working out and catching up on tracking my food. So -- I think I'm trying to say that days like this are few and far between, so feeling bad about the eating just doesn't make sense. I didn't feel that the spontaneous eating was out of control.
As for the Cheeto challenge, I'm going to treat this as a CREDIT MOI. In doing our shopping for the week, the DP purchased TWO bags of cheetos. I tried to talk her out of it, being as direct as possible in saying, "I really don't want these things in the house." But, I also feel that I can't demand she bow to my every eating wish. So, I got angry (but kept it to myself). Then, I decided to make the best of it and turn this into a challenge: I will not have even ONE cheeto. I haven't ever cut anything completely. If I REALLY love something, I always put a little taste into my plan. But I realized: I really LOVE Thai food. I don't LOVE cheetos. So I can do this! And maybe I'll plan in some Thai food later this week, as a reward.
BBE, I would have a very tough time letting go of books with any kind of inscription. I too feel touched by fate when I purchase a book from the thrift store that has a personal note in it.
Other news: I've been solidly at 180 lbs this week. Looking forward to moving into the 170s this week! I KNOW I can, I KNOW I can!!!!!
Goals for the day:
* Deal with some bills
* Complete and mail fellowship application
* Complete and e-mail USC fellowship apps (might as well get it all out of the way!)
* Plan the rest of writing week
* Finish up laundry
* Work out
* Track eating