Hello everyone....
I desperately need some help.
I am 42 years old (birthday is tomorrow) and I have been "chubby" all my life. I never felt comfortable with my body but I was just "borderline" to get me by. At the beginning of the year my husband and I joined a gym. We joined one of the 24 hour gyms so I could go when no one was there. I watched what I ate but I was not going crazy about it and I lost 18 pounds. I was going good for 4 months until May hit. My sister was diagnosed with Cancer and I lost focus on everything including myself. Sadly in August she passed away and I not only gained back the weight I lost I gained another 15 pounds.
So here I am 190 pounds (5'7") and have NO IDEA how to start up again. I know it sounds silly but I am at a loss. I have a gym membership but I have no idea how to start back up. I have every intention of eating healthy when I wake up and I blow it a couple of hours later. I am not happy with myself and for some reason that makes it even harder for me to move forward.
I am even at the point I cancel on social events because I am embarressed on how I look.
When I started at the gym I was going 4 times a week and working on 40 minutes cardio (treadmill) and 30 minutes weights.I had no direction on my workout. I just kind of made it up.
So my question to all you wonderful people....
Where do I begin? I can not afford a personal trainer but I want a routine to stick too. I have many machines to work with but I do not know how to tackle them. I want to have the biggest impact for the hour and fifteen minutes I am there but I am afraid I will not.
Eating? Weight Watchers...Atkins...calorie counting...I am so confused. I really want to make this work but I fail every time I try something new.
I would like to lose 50 pounds over the next year but I have no idea how to get back on track...how do you find the motivation to not only start but to keep going?
Sorry for the rambling but I am at a loss and really need some advice.
I hope everyone is having a great day.
J