This is kind of long, so bear with me...
I'm earning day 3 and feeling pretty good. But yesterday I ran into my cousin and she invited me to the Renaissance Festival with her and her family. I love the Ren Fes. I used to go every year as a kid. I love the costumes and the crafts and the shows... but mostly, I love the food. Giant Turkey Legs and chocolate-covered cheesecake on a stick and beer and pulled pork and.... I could go on, but you get the idea. So this is a whole day centered around food. My (very skinny) cousin even said she wants to get there right when it opens because she wants to be able to eat as much as possible. If I make it to Sunday (and I will!) that'll only be day 6 for me. I don't think I'll be able to resist all the temptation, especially so early in my weightloss journey. I don't think I'd be able NOT to binge .
Now I'm thinking I probably shouldn't go, even though I know I'd have so much fun!
My question: Is not going a good thing? Does it mean I'm so committed to losing weight this time that I'm not letting things derail me the way I used to? Or, is it a bad thing. Does it mean I'm trying to lose weight in a way that's not sustainable because I can't avoid life and food forever. I need to learn self-control at some point(not to mention I need to maintain some semblance of a social life!). But maybe it's just too early. Maybe if I were earning day 10 or 20 I could go and trust myself, but in the very very beginning of what I hope will be a life-long change in eating habits, maybe it's not the worst thing to hide myself away in order to stay away from food?
I'm torn. Any thoughts/suggestions/comments would be appreciated