I woke up this morning and weighed myself (check-in day) and was proud of myself for having lost another kilogram (2.2lbs) this week. I have been stressing that my weight loss was starting to slow down but I was wrong. On average, it has been about 1 kilogram per week which I am very happy about.
I have decided to invest in some proper running shoes and went on a mission to find a pair today. I was feeling pretty good about myself regarding the total amount of weight I have lost overall and the fact that others are starting to comment positively on the results also. When I went to the first shop (which was a well known sports shoe shop) I was appalled at how the staff were behaving. I went straight to the running shoe section and was standing there for a while before anyone said anything to me. There were no other customers in the shop. Finally a very young female staff member came over, said hello and walked away immediately. She went back to standing around with the rest of the staff making fun of customers as they walked past outside the shop. I again stood there for another 5 mins or so looking over the shoes and no one came to ask if I needed any help. I decided to leave and when I did I heard them all laughing as I walked out.
I am not sure what they were laughing at, whether it was me or someone else. Sadly, it made me feel more self-conscious about my weight and I felt like they were wondering what a big person like me was doing in a shop like that. I know that I am not the picture of fitness, however, at least I am doing something about it.
I ended up going to another smaller shop where a male staff member came and helped me pick out some shoes. Initially he also looked at me a bit funny when I mentioned I wanted them for running, but I said I was just starting out and he was a lot more helpful after that. I did buy those ones.
I find it sad, that no matter how hard I have worked to get where I am, simple comments, sniggers etc can bring me back to reality and make me feel like none of it was worth it.
Does anyone else feel like this? I wish I wasn't this way but I am. My husband tells me not to worry about what happened and he thinks I look great. However, I have very low self confidence and when things like this happen it just makes it worse.
On a happier note, I did go clothes shopping and was really ecstatic about being able to buy clothes in the 'normal' size range instead of the plus sizes!!!!!