I went to the park yesterday on a sort of field trip with some of my kids. We played soccer, just two on two, so I was running up and down that field HARD and frequently! It was so much fun! But I dreaded it! I was anxious about it the entire day before. I did not want to go at all. It was hot and we had planned lots of sports type activities. I just knew I'd be hot and sweaty and miserable and out of breath. I knew I'd jiggle and it would be embarrassing to show myself that way to colleagues.
But none of that is true anymore! I AM fit! I CAN run! 90 degree weather is only a minor inconvenience now. I'd prefer air conditioning, but 90 degrees is tolerable, even in the sun! I can run up and down the soccer field AND enjoy it too! And I don't jiggle, and if I do, well no one needs to be looking that close.
I have found this dread keeps cropping up. It's STILL holding me back! I'm dreading this weekend because I have a lot of outdoor cub scout activities to do with the boys and I'm just not looking forward to the amount of work it's going to be. But when it's all over, I know I'll have a great time.
I want to stop dreading life!! When does that mind set change?!