I started my journey way back last October and, quite frankly, I kicked some serious behind. From October to about January, I was doing fantastically. February through April was a bit tougher but I still saw some results. I managed to lose 30lbs and maintain it through that timespan. And then came May. Graduation, Spring Break, all sorts of stressful situations and 'breaks' from the norm suddenly hit at once. I dropped the ball. I stopped working out, I picked up my old habits. I even stopped plugging in my intake to Dailyplate. Unsurprisingly, I gained.
Now I'm at 150lbs. I gained five pounds from April to June. It's amazing, to me, how much easier it is to gain than lose. Gaining is so mindless, so easy! If it weren't for the emotional/mental/physical strain it all causes, it'd almost be fun to be such a hedonist!
My point, though, is...what did I have before that I've lost now? I am still unhappy with my weight and would like to change it. However, the driving force, that real concrete WILL seems to have left me. And as I'm not really sure where or why it came about in the first place, I've no idea how to regain it. Most nights I go to bed thinking "tomorrow is the day!" and in the morning I do well, planning my intake, fully intending to workout after I get home from work, etc. And by noon-time my mind is going "well, one cookie wouldn't hurt. Or two. Or, here, have more sandwich. Buy that potato salad for supper! Oh, Chinese food!" And by evening my body is going "are you kidding me? I've been on my feet for ten hours! I'm not doin' anything remotely exercise related. Psh!"
Whereas, back when I was losing, my mind and body had the same complaints. But there seemed to be this third force which said "Shut up, lame-face! Go get your workout clothes on!" and "Cookie? COOKIE? What's a cookie when you could be thin and healthy? Put that down and go walk!"
So, will. Where didja go? Can I have you back, please?