Although I hate to see others struggle with the same thing I'm struggling with at the same time it is a relief to know that I am not alone.
I actually binged tonight and decided to come on here and check out this part of the board b/c I feel like I need to connect with others who "truly" understand what I am going through.
Basically with me I have lost the majority of my weight with low carb and no carbs at times. I find that I tend to use low carb as a way of extreme dieting. One could say instead of bingeing and purging or starving I low carb to offset my binges.
There is no particular reason, dark life, stress etc... that causes me to binge I binge when I'm happy, sad, bored etc..... Low carbing actually helps with the cravings but then I get bored with the eating or I find myself in a situation where there are temptations or I'm not prepared (menu wise) and end up resorting to snacking and it taste so good that I can't stop.
Like literally I get in this zone and I can't stop eating and then I'm on the hunt for more and more until I feel numb mentally.
It's miserable and I hate losing and gaining the same weight over and over. When I'm in that binge zone it's like I know it's bad and I know the consequences (bloating, water gain, face breaking out etc....) but when I'm stuffing my face I DON'T CARE!!! All I want is that instant gratification but then when it's over it's like this dark cloud comes over me and I get really depressed and down and dissapointed in myself then I go back to low carb and sometimes eating only protein and fats (once losing 17lbs in one week and an add'l 5 lbs the next week).
I'll stick with it for a while losing the weight and reversing all of the temporary damage from the binge and start feeling optimistic then BAM!!!! The cycle starts all over again.
I can only imagine the damage I'm doing internally. Anyway I feel little better now that I finally decided to actually post on this side of the board after typing this out I don't have that urger to get another bowl of cereal or eat another burger and for that I am grateful.
I really hope we all can find our way to freedom from the prison of bingeing! I look forward to reading other people experiences and hopefully help each other through this.