When my husband and I were married he was 19 and I was 20. I believe I weighed about 190 pounds but I didn't look 190 pounds, no loose belly from having children, had lots of stylish clothes. I met a lot of his friends and had no issues at all. After my first son was born I lost a lot of weight and stayed at 150 pounds, then I got pregnant with our second son and gained it all back plus some. I got back down to 170 pounds and have gained it all back plus some again. And it's just from shere stupidity. I let myself go. I didn't have time for myself and I didn't make the effort to ask for or to make time for myself.
Today I went grocery shopping and of course I have no clothes that fit and I refuse to buy more clothes that are a size bigger. So I was wearing jeans that were too tight and gave me a muffin top. I was wearing one of my big baggy sweatshirts to hide the muffin top. I ran into one of my hubby's friends who was working at the store and we were talking. I noticed standing nearby is an aquaintance of DH's that I've met a couple of times years ago who also works there. I was walking away down the next aisle and I heard him say "Hey, do you know who that was???". And the other guy said he didn't know and then DH's friend says "That was Brad's wife!". The other guy said "WHAT?!?! Are you SERIOUS????". It was like a disgusted, shocked sort of tone to his voice and I am so embarassed. I'm not happy with myself, I've let myself go. I don't feel like the real me.
I know what I have to do to get it done, I've done it once before, but it just sucks. I already know I look like a tank, I don't need anyone else to think it.
To top off my crappy day, my oldest son who is 6 was so upset when I had to send him off to school because he says he has no friends and he is getting teased because he doesn't run fast enough.