Okay people, I'm in need of some serious encouragement, some serious "you better do this or else", some serious words of wisdom, ect.!!! 
I know what I need to do, but I'm not doing it and I don't know what I can do to get me moving.
Here's a typical morning routine for me:
I don't sleep well (long story), I have to physically get up out of bed and change sides due to pain every hour, so I usually get fed up with that routine any where around 3 a.m. to 5:00 a.m.
So, I'm usually up for good around 6 a.m.
I have two pieces of toast with very little light spread, a cup of coffee and my meds.
Then, a lot of time, that routine makes me sleepy, so I go and lay back down for maybe another hour of sleep.
Then, I get up and eat AGAIN.
And, a lot of the time I continue to eat for the next hour.
Now listen to this really sad story.
Our family life is dysfunctional due to my husbands dysfunctional upbringing, which he has inherited into his child rearing ways.
Daughter now 20, and my boy 12.
My son and I are very close and he is VERY emotional (red head!!) and VERY sensitive.
Well, one day, (and let me tell you I can read him like a book), he and I were in my car grabing a quick McD's lunch before we had to go to an activity.
We park someplace and I begin on my lunch, look over at him and he's got this funny look on his face and not eating.
I ask him, "What's wrong." To which he says, "Oh nothing." But, I know better and pursue. I ask again and he says, "My brain is saying things."
Now, I've already had this boy in therapy for another issue, now I'm getting concerned with the statement of "My brain is saying things."
My mind goes hyper.
So, I pursue it further because I can see that he is really troubled by this.
So, come to find out, his "brain" was telling him that I am DEAD.
Okay peps, now you tell me, shouldn't I be getting myself healthy because I need to be here for my boy if nothing else?
(And, on a side note, I quit COLD TURKEY from smoking 15 yrs. when I found out that I was pregnant with him. I CAN accomplish things....but it's always for MY KIDS. Should I make that my motivation with the weight??)
HELP ME.
Kelli
Frustrated and worried that maybe I can't do this.
Kelli. There is alot of information on this website. The maintainers has a maintenance library with some helpful information. Good Luck!
