I had a bad day at work. We had a "administration team building lunch" at work today, which didnt turn out to be very team building at all. In fact, I got shot down and humiliated in front of the group. I spent the afternoon feeling really down. Truth be told, since we moved here 7 months ago, I havent really felt like I fit in anywhere. And the comment that was made at lunch today just made me feel even more isolated. So in the back of my head, I knew that I should have come home and gone for a run to de-stress. But in the front of my head all I could think was "ICECREAM". So I came home just as DH was leaving for work, and I had a GIANT sundae for dinner. Yup, for dinner. And guess what? I dont feel better, I feel worse. I keep falling into this - dealing with my unhappiness by eating. How do I get to the point where I can resist acting on that urge and recognize the actual outcome of doing it? I am so frustrated with this.
Now I feel alone and like a failure. Great.