Today I was reflecting on one of the most important things my weight loss and maintenance efforts have done for me.
And that would be: The sense of accomplishment & competence I've gained as I've learned how to use my body. And how that is slowly S-L-O-W-L-Y ... S...L...O...W...L...Y easing the remembered pain of gym classes from so many years ago.
I was a slender, active child who, it seemed, suddenly became encased in fat during her adolescence. And after that time, gym classes & my place in the social pecking order in junior high school and high school was never, ever the same. I really dreaded gym class, from the clothes-changing in the locker room to the humiliation of being fat in unflattering gym clothes to the awfulness of being subjected to athletic rituals in which I failed utterly & miserably, over & over. I could not wait to graduate from high school partly because compulsory gym class would end forever.
So now, flash forward, and who'd have thought I would have come to such a pass? It's a complete reversal of how I felt when I was 17. As part of my weight loss efforts, I began to walk, then to run (till my feet acted up), then to bike & use an elliptical & swim & take yoga & Pilates. I go to the gym willingly. Even happily. I do this every day. I feel guilty if I miss a session. I've even participated in organized classes, with an instructor. I can see some muscles. I feel competent. I do not feel like the class klutz or idiot anymore.
I don't mean to sound too self-congratulatory here, but I finally recognized that there is something remarkable about this.
I am so curious about the rest of you. Has anyone else experienced this about-face in attitude toward their body & what it can do? Or are you all lapsed jocks who rediscovered your bodies & your, ah, jockitude all over again when you reaffirmed your commitment to exercising?