Okay.
So a week ago tomorrow I fell off the healthy-eating wagon. I ate too little early in the day, and was confronted by some pizza on campus. I had a slice. Just one. I stayed on plan for the rest of the day, so I thought I'd be okay. Apparently not. Apparently that huge white-doughy crust is a trigger food that sets me off - I went wildly on a binge.
I had a graveyard shift at work last Friday night. I made the mistake of trying not to eat ANYTHING all night except coffee, green tea, and a serving of strawberries, to "get back on track". I gave up at three in the morning. There is a box of stale croissants in the staff room - I maybe ate three of them that night, plus two slices of white bread slathered with butter and honey. I can't remember what else, but I'm sure there was more.
The next afternoon I went back to work. Unfortunately, I work at a place with a lot of food. Had a flan. And more crossiants. And the next day at work I had two slices of pizza, and FOUR donuts (I would normally NEVER eat four donuts), in addition to the healthy dinner I had prepared for myself at home.
Yesterday and today have been a mess. I have been so stressed out with my term papers - I have been eating sugary carbs non-stop (banana bread, cheese scones, chocolate, and eggnog and caramel lattes from Starbucks) - just eating more in general - and not working out.
Well enough I say.
I felt sick today. It's time to try something new.
I read that it takes about 21 days to establish a new habit. I need a new habit, so I am going to go one month without any refined carbs whatsoever (I picked a month because it seems like a nice, rounded period of time - plus in Supersize Me it takes him a month to gain all that weight, so I figure that changing your body in reverse would probably take about the same time, at least to get started).
I am not going to try to lose weight for this month, although, if I stay on plan, I anticipate that this will happen anyway. Instead, I plan on eating clean at around 2100 calories daily (when I started my weight loss plan I was eating about 1400 calories a day, which may have been too little, I'm not sure).
The point of this is just to get my body in the habit of eating clean, and to kick the sugar habit. Right now there is no such thing as moderation. Maybe when I'm at goal, I can possibly treat myself from time to time. I don't know. I will have to work it out then.
I am going to get up and work-out first thing tomorrow morning before school. Hopefully that can kick start my day.
I am going to try to post in this thread daily for the next month to keep me accountable/monitor my progress. I find that post on 3FC has helped me keep my mind off eating when I first started/given me a sense of motivation, so I hope I can continue that.