OMG This morning my darling scale gave me 189.2. I had to check it over and over again, got the same thing every time. That number means so many things to me. I'm in a new decade. I've lost 55 pounds. My I.D. card is no longer a lie. I weigh less than I have any conscious memory of ever weighing. I have 1 very vague memory of 120ish, but that doesn't exactly count since I was in elementary school at the time. Even when I was a teen and was trying really hard for a few years I only managed to keep my weight 190-195. Now years later I know that it was because of my undiagnosed PCOS and am actually quite proud of those years of being able to maintain under 200 with no meds. However, dropping below that 190 line feels absolutely amazing.
It's also kinda crazy and a bit terrifying, but in a fun way, lol.
I had set my goals and I was trying really hard to make myself believe that I really could get to them, but I don't think I actually felt that I could until this morning. Seeing that scale read below 190 makes me know that if I continue to want it to do so it will one day read 175 and 150 and 125 and 115.
I know I haven't been part of 3FC for very long, but you have helped me get here and I know you will help me keep going and I want to thank all of you. Those of you who are even newer than me and you are wondering if you can do this, if you have the strength - you can and you do. If I can get below 190 we can all do anything!
