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Originally Posted by MugCanDoIt
I feel you...Ive been pretty much stalled for about 3 months now. I too feel like I still have soooo far to go. I want to lose about 70 more lbs. Theres that little voice in the back of my mind that is saying "you'll never get there, and although you look way smaller, you will never be thin". Although I keep fighting through it and will manage to lose about 5 or 6 lbs, then it comes right back on during the weekends.
Then the feelings of disgust.....thats what I feel. Because I know for a fact I CAN lose the weight, but I choose to let my "addiction" win.......and that makes me sick. Its like I am trying to get to the top of a really steep hill, and when I finally get inches from the top, I slide right on back down the darn thing.
I hope we can grasp whatever it is that is causing us to stall, mental, physical, or whatever it may be. Because we only have one life, and who knows how long?
wow, so much of this I could relate to. and I've had stalls that lasted longer than 3 months, I hate to say.
Stalling doesn't mean failure, though it can feel like it. And I can let it make me feel like a failure, esp sometimes when I post how slowly I'm losing, even with all the weight I've already lost and kept off. I get mad and frustrated at myself too. It isn't worth it to let myself get too discouraged -- that just sabotages me. I have to concentrate on keeping doing what I'm doing right, which is many things, and working on those habits and thinking patterns that aren't helping me. This is a big mind game.
CM, with your routine, you're focusing on diet and weight loss, and on your body, and you're beating yourself up about it. That's why you feel worse, even though you've lost weight. Give yourself credit for what you've done, and the NSV are nothing to sneeze at. With all the gazillion people who have weight to lose, you're not alone, and the shame game ain't helpful to where you want to get either. Chuck it out the door.
In a way, negative thinking can be a good way to let ourselves off the hook. I'm so fat and worthless and weak, I CAN'T lose this weight! = I don't have to try.