Thank you all! It is just so nice to hear that everyone else has gone through this. In your mind you know other people have made it past these plateaus but sometimes it just refreshes your SOUL to hear them say it again...because when you are sitting on the top of that plateau, I swear, time stops...and every day feels like weeks and every week feels like months - and your forget that this can be conquered!
Plus, since I have NEVER made it past a plateau before; this is new territory for me. I don't want to give up...I just want to see some results!
Have I been perfectly on plan? There is the problem. There isn't a plan. I have tried calorie counting and food journals...I don't know if its the AD/HD PLUS the kids being off of school or what, but I just have never been able to stick with it! It is SO forced and it is SO hard for me to do! Plus, since I cook EVERY meal for a family of 6 EVERY day with VERY little money and with half of the family having special dietary considerations. (Food allergies) and my 3 year old needing FULL fat foods (he's a tiny guy...doctor recommended) That after I figure out what I can make that we can all eat...I am too darn tired to figure anything else out! I have been trying to eat smart. Meaning, I have been trying to eat the same thing as the family (its a necessity, cooking 2 dinners a night would be financially impossible) but be smarter about what I make and how much, I eat. It has worked well until this plateau. I realize that its not a structured plan and that may very well be where I am failing myself. When the older two go back to school next week, maybe I'll get two minutes to try to focus more on a real eating plan that will work for ALL of us, or at least one that allows me to make minor modifications for me, without making a whole separate meal.
I don't know. I am very scatterbrained. Part of me is scared that this is all because I got off antidepressants way back in January and maybe I shouldn't have. There is NO way I'll go back...nope. No more antidepressants and no more being fat! I know that we are going through a lot of stress in my family right now (and it really got bad right around the time I started to plateau) so I know that is not helping! I am going to get those doctors appointments scheduled and get some stuff figured out! Perhaps I'll even make an appointment with the dietitian they have on staff. That certainly can't hurt.
I hate feeling so out of control! Thank you again for giving me a bit more confidence to keep moving forward.