hello everyone!!
I'm officially new on this forum(officially cuz i've been there for month but never posted anything).To introduce myself quickly, im French so, sorry if the writing isnt so good,im 19 im in lawschool in Paris and i have had ed for about 4 years it started with anorexia for 2years and now it's bulimia and especially overeating,binging(purging very little).
I've never posted on any forums though i do visit a lot of forums about weight ed and stuff but everytime i could find a story similar to mine and i just watched the answer of this thread.
Today i really needed to rant a bit.I apparently don't have anything to complain in life for beside my Ed.Frm the outside everything seems good lt of friend,great family,pretty good at school...yeah right.Except that i live in what i call a "gold prison" ,none of my friend know about my ed and the only person in the world who knew was my mother and therapist i've been suffering for years and although it was obvious during anorexia that i was ill i pretended i went to the hospital for an another reason and so on..
Anyway my mom who was very supportive at first can't stand the situation anymore and she told my father few month ago that i was bulimic i've put on 35 pounds and eveyone pretend they don't see it...
there are ups and downs which can last weeks right now i've been binging straight for a week and my mom and I were arguing about that tonight when my father came home and he almost insulted me telling me i was disgusting, that i had mental illlness and so on..and why the **** am i not perfect like my two other sister and my bro who are.WTF.My parents are the ppl i love the most in the world but lately i dnt feel the same..how can they not understand i didnt choose to be sick..i feel so betrayed.AS i was crying in my bedroom my dad asked me to come down to see something on the tv about anorexia and bulimia(yeah cuz i dnt already spend my life watching everything about it..!)
They forced me to watch the documentary and my dad was like ok its over you're going to eat dinner with us everynight and eat between meals and stuff..AND he wants to cancel my trip to the US this summer(i go almost every yr in cali to see friend who live there).Instead he wants me to go in psychiatrich hospital the whole month of august.WTF WTF
HELP ME what TO DO??!
PS:Im so sry this was so long and thank you so much if you took the time to read.