Well, took my last pause on the sugar challenge on Saturday, but held strong on Sunday. I was very tempted but knew I had no pauses left and just didn't want to blow it. So, the unmentionables I bought, I simply (oh, right) took home and did NOT eat. Knowing I CAN eat them if I just wait (I like to picture a hand over my head and a voice commanding, "Wait, girl, wait!" like a person to a dog before it dives into the food bowl ).
The caffeine was good too. In fact, I think I had even less than usual. The fatigue is there but not as bad as before. I think too I have just become used to it.
Anyhow, I am dreading going in to the office today as I wrote a very pissed-off email to my immediate boss about the proceedings there and he will probably be reading that today. I don't regret writing it. I had to. I could not just sit there and let what they did go unmentioned. I absolutely hate the place but they have me between a rock and a hard place and if I protest too much they can screw me over. It's one of the reasons I took their redundancy plan. I knew I really had no choice. If I stayed, they would be after me soon and I would have had to take what they dished out mostly or tried to fight with a lawyer. I don't think I could have stood the stress. God, I hate it. Twenty-three years at the company and they will cut me off like I had never existed. Makes me feel real good.
Minimal Sugar 17 completed 3 pauses taken
Caffeine Cut (Round 2!) Day 3 completed 0 pauses taken
(completed first round July 10 with no pauses taken!!
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Shad -- Yeah, I had a fun weekend I guess. It was a productive one. Rode both days and worked half a day on Saturday after I rode. Really counting the days here now. The 31st is my last day there. I sure hope something good is around the corner. I'm putting out feelers for something I can create on my own and I have an employment agency looking for me for something that would just pay the bills. My problem all along (if you can call it that) is that what I like to do and what I'm talented in and what pays well do not come together. I have suffered because I refuse to cut one of those elements out completely. I feel I have no choice. I cannot risk my mental and physical health any more than I do. Hope your situation is improving or that you're prepared to improve it as well. How is the work scene?
Jazzy -- Starting out again is tough but you must remember that no matter how many times you fall down, you MUST get up again. Eventually, you'll truly be able to STAY up. Go, girl!
diyana -- Where are you? Hope things are OK!