I don't know if it helps you to know that you are not alone, but you are NOT alone. I was about 20 pounds from my goal about a year ago and then I just lost focus and gained back about 30 pounds. Like the others said, thank goodness I didn't gain it ALL back. I am realizing now that what I did to loose the weight before worked (it worked really well), but it was not something I wanted to do for the rest of my life. This time I feel like I have found a plan that will
BE my life from now on. Hopefully that means no more yo-yo'ing.
You've taken the hardest step by coming back - what a victory!