I was gonna post a blog on Myspace but then I realized that no one would really understand like you guys do.
I have done great. Starting at 218 lbs I am now 184. I have lost inches like crazy and dropped about 5 sizes. I'm working with a personal trainer and can totally feel my muscle developing. I can see the definition in my arms and legs now......
But I'm getting tired of all of it. I'm tired of giving up Cokes. I'm tired of not being able to eat what I really want.....a big *** burger, cheese fries, chocolate cake...... Why does looking good have to suck so damn bad? I mean it's not fair. I'm tired of working so hard at this.
I'm cheating more and more. I went from having no will power, to a little, to being able to turn anything down without a problem. Now I can't stop eating the bread at the restaurant I work at. I'm ordering pizza. I'm ordering food at work. I'm sneaking regular cokes. It's like I know it's wrong and I'm gonna regret it but I don't care. I haven't really gained weight either. My numbers on the scale have remained the same.
I just feel like I'm slipping. And I'm afraid I'm gonna gain the weight back.
What do I do?