Hi girls! I need your opinions...
So last month I made a goal not to eat out the entire month of April and I did it! I cooked all my meals at home and really felt great.
I also have ben trying to eat more whole organic foods because it makes me feel better about the foods I am putting into my body. Not everything I eat is organic but veggies, fruit, meat, eggs and milk for the most part.
Anyway - the boyfriend was super supportive about my month of not eating out and ate everything I gave him. So tonight he really wanted thai and I thought it was a great idea and wanted to have some pad thai for a treat.
We got to the thai place and I sat in front of my food and just didn't feel hungry. It looked nasty, tasted worse but it was the same ol' pad thai I had always loved. I had three bites.
Sitting there I just felt sick. I hadn't prepared this food, I didn't know what was in it and the fat and calories MUST be soaring. Yes, I felt bad for not finishing it but I almost felt anxious about eating it.
There across from me was this thin blonde, laughing - drinking her wine and eating her pad thai. I kinda wished I was her - not worrying - having a great time - looking wonderful. Okay - enough self pity.
Anyway - are my feelings unusual? My Dad thinks they are all anxiety based and told me to get some more xanax - that people should be able to eat out on occassion and not freak out.
I think apart of me has changed and I think apart of me fears that food because of what is use to represent.
What do you think? Any similar feelings? I would love your thoughts.