Finally decided to get medicated for my depression/anxiety/OCD. I'm a person who try anything and everything before actually getting on medication...did the Vitamin B thing, meditation, etc.
In any case, I'm now on Lexapro 10mg and Ativan [lorazepam] 0.5mg. The MD said the Lexapro will take a couple weeks to kick in and for me to take lorazepam in the mean time whenever I have an anxiety attack.
The reason I'm starting it now is because [a] this time of year is hard for me in any case [my grandma passed away three years ago May 1] and my hubby is leaving for three weeks as of this coming up Tuesday. He'll be gone for the entire time period...the time period in which every year, without fail, I cry for days on end.
I was having anxiety attacks in ANTICIPATION of the anxiety attacks I know I'm going to have.
The end result being: I started the Lexapro yesterday and figured out why they gave me the lorazepam along with it - I nearly lost my mind in this crazy manic OCD phase! I mean, granted, my appetite is almost completely gone so I might even lose some weight out of starting these meds, but my goodness! I cleaned our apartment in about two hours flat, and we're talking crazy OCD cleaning.
I feel better today, though...still energetic but not manic energetic.
-sigh- Maybe this will stop the binging I've been doing all week when I've been having my anxiety attacks. I'm hoping the meds will bring down my anxiety which will bring down my compulsive over-eating binges [diagnosed with COE].
Wish me luck!