I am really not happy right now. I started well this week, I went to the gym regularly, and when I skipped that I dragged myself to the park to get some exercise in anyways... I ate well, I had my menu planned and I resisted the snacks.... but then I had a dinner out on Thursday, I kind of went a little overboard and was unhappy about that, but I kind of figured I could make up for that.... but yesterday was a total disaster. I got a last minute invitation for a dinner with friends, and I was baking a cake for that. Which theoretically was good - I had not baked that particular family recipe in two years, and I only do it when I can share it because it's a total diet killer but it's so good... so I figured that this way I could have one little slice only, get the taste but not the caloric binge... But somehow it all started going wrong... I trim the cake to a more regular shape and taste the trimming to see how it's come out... and some more... and the cream to cover the cake... and some snacks from the fridge... I was already feeling uncomfortable and unhappy by the time I drove to my friend's house. Then my stomach had (unfortunately) settled down, so I was ready to eat with them... and boy, they had cooked up a storm! The food was good and the chatter flowing, and I kind of lost touch of it all... so I really don't want to even try tracking down how much I ate. Apart from the fried stuffed olives (a traditional southern dish) the rest was quite healthy stuff... but LOTS of it... in addition to what I had in the afternoon... I'm not going to count.
SIGH
I'll try to be good... next week I don't plan any more nights out (but even yesterday's one was not planned!) so hopefully I can give myself a mini-goal of being good for a whole week... then we'll see....
I had planned on trying stepping on the scales tomorrow to give me some numbers to look at, but right now I don't know if I have the courage....