Happy Saturday All!
jules - Hey great work! I have heard the artificial sweeteners and other stuff in diet cokes actually work against losing weight. Seems counter-intuitive doesn't it?
blonde - Yeah, time to take care of YOU! It is tough saying no, but I can't imagine anyone who is a friend would not understand that right now you have to take things slowly while you figure out what's going on.
Okay, I'm officially a little depressed and discouraged. Despite going over to the department store yesterday and discovering yes, size 14 pants are tight BUT FIT, I still came home and had two beers, 2/3 a pint of Haagen Daas and three bowls of chicken soup (mostly chicken - the way I make it!). This was ALL ON TOP of my daily calories. Which included two poptarts. Sigh. I feel old I think. I have had an ongoing issue with of all places my HEEL in pain for like four or five weeks now. I can't seem to get a handle on my allergies and asthma, blah blah blah. I'm trying to bump up my look with these new contacts and picked up a frosting kit at the drugstore this morning. But I feel, well - just old. Like I'm fooling myself and I need to just go grey and embrace my frumpiness. I did the tape measure again last night and yes I've lost - but it seems so little. I mean of course, what am I expecting with what? Not quite 16 pounds lost. I'm really struggling to keep the enthusiasm up right now.
On the happy side of things (now that you all have listened to me whine!) I ran into a girl walking today that I have formed a little friendship with. We hadn't seen each other for months since her mother became ill - but hopefully have a date to go thrift store shopping next week. I love her energy and outlook on life. She's also lost weight - doing it very differently - some book by a British hypnotist entitled "I Can Make You Thin". Or something like that. So here I am addicted to the control I have of the scale and counting calories and she's given all that up to be more mindful of how she eats. It sounds good though - I think when I've reached goal I may try that as it sounds more like how you want to live your life. Eating for hunger not for "love".
And I am so excited about our trip back east I already have the suitcase out and packing. My BF is laughing at me.
I guess I just don't do well when my life gets too small. I always have to have a new adventure ahead of me. I need to keep in mind that I need to really work on mindfullness so I can learn to stay in the present and not get discontent when things arean't happening "fast enough".
Hope everyone is having a GR8 WEEKEND!!!