Okay, so I started coming here in 2002, at the time I was 170 something and needed to lose 40, each year I came back I weighed more.
I most recently came back in January this year and weighed 226, I stayed 2 days and now am back 4 months later and 20 pounds heavier!!
This is it!!! I am fighting mad and I am scared crazy!!!
I am due for my lab work, I know my cholesterol levels are awfull, metabolic syndrome for sure, and am scared to know if I am still prediabetic or if I put my foot further into the grave and have become diabetic.
I have severe sleep apnea, I use a cpap. I want to have surgery on my eye, I have strabismus. I am a nurse and I know how dangerous it can be to go under anethesia when one has severe sleep apnea.
Please dont read further if easily offended.
I have trouble getting my shoes on.
I am now having trouble wiping my ***!
All of my pants are too tight, I am now wearing my husbands jeans.
I have to powder every nook and cranny so that I wont stick and so that I wont get rashes.
My thighs rub when I walk. I am very self conscious when I walk.
I sweat.
I wear a cpap machine and have now started snoring even with the machine on, which means I need a higher pressure.
I have lost my neck and cant find my feet!!
Do I need any more reason to lose weight?? yes!! I have two beautiful daughters who are 8 and 9 and I want to be a good example for them and I want to see them become moms years down the road.
I am so freaking ready it is unbelievable. I refuse to buy bigger clothes!!!
I turn 38 on Tuesday and this is my birthday present. I am going to get me back and I am going to treat myself right.
So anyway, here I am!!!!