Hi,
I'm looking for some support. I'm 34 and I, like everyone else, have been on every diet there is and many I've created. I'm sitting right about the 300 lb mark right now. I began pursuing wls again about 4 months ago. I've started the program twice and then stopped, praying I would find another way, but I feel more lost than ever. When I filled out my diet history this time I realized I've lost and gained back at least 50 lbs 5 times in the last 10 years. I don't want to live like this anymore. I feel like every decision I make at this point in my life comes back to my weight. Should I go to the shower, no everyone will just stare at my most recent weight gain. Should I apply for the promotion, no if I can't even control what I eat why should I think I can run a department. Take a trip, what if the seat belt is too small. Meet friends to go shopping, what if my ankles can't take it. It's not everything about me, it's not even what's most important, but I am so sick and tired of thinking about this all the time.
So surgery. I have my surgeon's appt march 19 and then will probably have the surgery 4-8 weeks after. I've already jumped through all the other hoops, nutrition appts, seminars, psych appts etc. I really really am going to need some help with this. I've been reading the other posts and I think this is where I need to be. Thanks for reading.
Laura