I've been trying to up my calories from 1200 to 1500 but I'm having alot of emotional struggles with it.
I get to my 1200 calories that I usually eat... and then I remember that I need to eat more and I end up binging. Tonight, my extra 300 calories that I needed to eat turned into 6 pieces of a cheeseless pizza.
I feel sick to my stomach, and I feel sick in my heart.
I can't seem to get this under control. I think I have a mental block when it comes to going over 1200 calories. If I go over 1200 I feel like I've "ruined" my day so I end up saying "f-it" and binging. Then, to make matters worse, I keep having disordered thoughts about how if I didn't eat tomorrow it would make up for it.
I want to get to 135 by my birthday on March 24th, which is 8 lbs away. I thought it was do able but now I'm getting discouraged.
I just need some advice on how I can get this eating under control. Maybe I should drop back down to 1200 calories and work my way up to 1500? Like, 1200 this week... 1300 for two weeks after that, then 1400, up to 1500.
I dunno. I'm just frustrated right now.