I'm cold, house-bound, back hurts and I'm thinking about food......Peanut M&Ms! Other than that, I'm doing fine!!!! LOL!!! I'm either going to have the cleanest house or gain 100 pounds. I think I'll clean the house!!! Snow is about 10 inches to a foot deep here and I'm anxious about my family working, driving and being out and about in this weather and I want to eat. So far I've had three turkey sausages, small cup of splenda hot cocoa, not so bad huh, then......three turkey meatballs with marinara sauce and cheese, about 1/2 c. seafood salad, a cup of tea and about five crackers. Of course, I've been up since 4:00, but it is just now noon. Where is my mantra "Eat to live not live to eat?!?!?" I stared at my grandkids peanut M&Ms for a half hour before I buried them!! I was going to bake some bread for my out-in-the-weather DH mailman, but afraid he will come home and find me dead with a bowl of butter in my lap and bread crumbs on my chest!!!!
I was up and heard George Stella talk about a New York Splenda cheese cake and now have the cream cheese laying out on the counter. I wanted to get some diet raspberry jello to make some fresh cranberry salad, but don't want to walk in snow up to my butt!!
Was over on OH this morning and someone asked the question, "Have you figured out why you overeat in the first place?" She is two years out got down to 180 pounds and is back up to 215.......This is not a good day for me to contemplate that question, but Yvonne McCarthy, who is eight years out said, "I ate to fill that hole in my heart and felt awful after wards. I ate again to numb that feeling and the vicious cycle began. ALSO, having a problem with addiction DOES NOT MAKE YOU A BAD PERSON. It is a disease.......you cannot look to external things to make you happy. Your happiness comes from inside and when you learn that, you will better understand to love yourself. The perfect weight, job, man, car all wear off after a while and you'll be looking for a new toy and you'll just repeat the process. Your prince or princess is with you always, you just didn't know where to look. " The whole thread was really good, someone who had dissected her reasons for becoming obese and a lot of food for thought. Her mantra is "LET IT GO! LET IT GO! LET IT GO! I need to chill out, no GKs, don't have to work or go out.....so think I'll put my feet up, turn on the heating pad, and read my booklet about ZUMBA
So crisis averted, and no M&Ms......Whoop!!! Hope you all are doing well.