SO After ready some responses to my other posts about cravings and such- I'm beginning to think I look at my weight loss / diet as a way to punish myself for letting myself get this big- like this diet should not be enjoyable- like I should not be allowed to eat foods I craves, that I shouldn't allow my self a treat every now and then...
the funny thing abotu what drew me to calorie counting was the fact it's not so much a "diet" per say it's a way of life the way I will eat forever...
But now I have a hard times allowing myself to enjoy that aspect of this.. I have not cheated in the 4 weeks I have been counting my cals- with the exception of having a Special K bar and a sugar free pudding while it was "that time of the month" and I knwo that's nto even technically cheating..
the other day i was CRAVING a cheeseburger soooo bad.. and after posting on here I realized it wouldn't have killed me to go get a single burger from burger king and just hold the mayo, or even make my own here with healthy lean meat- But I wouldn't allow myself too.. I thought "I'll be cheating" I cant enjoy foods I like right? Isn't that the point to a diet?
I don't know what I'm saying.. I guess I'm just venting- It's weird that I logically know this is a way of life not some fad diet.. and that I should allow my self to enjoy some things I like every now in then in moderation as long as it doesn't put me over my allowed calories... but for some reason I haven't been able to let myself do it.. as if I'm punishing myself... does this make sence at all?