Hi Chicks,
I needed to put this somewhere, I am so hurt and lost now. My Fiancee left me 3 weeks ago. He says that he can't be what I need. He can't do the whole married with children thing. He says he can never be what I need so he left. He says he loves me, but he can't be the kind of guy who comes home for dinner and tv. He told me he's an alcoholic (We own a bar together) All he wants to do is drink and smoke pot. I lost him, by business, the people there that I care about.
I dont know what to do with myself. I haven't walked into our bedroom since he left. I sleep on the couch. I walk for hours every day because I can't be in the house. There are so many memories. I feel like I don't belong anywhere. Everything is familiar, my home, my town, my car . . . but it all feels different.
I don't know what I did wrong. Did he leave because I gained some weight? Because of something I did or didn't do? Im not good enough for him? I can't stop crying. I've turned into a pathetic bowl of jello.
Thanks for letting me dump. I just couldn't hold it in anymore. I want my life back and it kills me that he loves his bar more than he loves me.