This is THE most frustrating, annoying and tedious time I have been through in my weight loss. I am at the point where I am SO close, I look smaller, feel smaller but I'm not happy to stop here.
But at this weight it requires a lot more effort to lose a kilo, and it's a lot harder to find the motivation to do that. I feel like I am on a trampoline: up, down, up, down, try a somersault, go for a spin, land flat on my @rse
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I would like to say that I am stuck on a plateau - but that would be a lie. I go for a few days with all guns blazing, and then the next day I'll just eat a little bit too much.
I'm not behaving like someone who wants to lose weight. I'm behaving like an idiot! It is bad, bad bad to abuse food (and my body) like this - and it's a mini pattern of the old habits that got me fat in the first place: all/nothing/all/nothing!
Right Ani THAT'S IT! Either I am serious about embracing this healthy lifestyle or I am not. Either I want to be a healthy weight, or I want to get fat again. Either I am going to be successful in my journey, or I am going to fail! There is no middle ground, no compromise, no excuse.
So here's the plan:
• The scales come out again on Monday and I suck up the results, no matter how bad they are.
• I work on the concept of finding freedom and balance in my life. In relation to my weight loss I am looking for balance.
• I demand consistency from myself - re-think my food plan, become a bit more adventurous in the food I prepare and eat.
• I STOP listening to people who tell me I don't need to lose any more weight - because they are wrong.
And here's the incentive:
My mother gave me $500 the other day. It was a gift to help me pay some bills, buy some clothes… because she knows I struggle financially with the amount of rent I pay.
I'm going to give it to my most trusted friend to look after. If, by the end of May, I get on the scales and am below 70kg I will get the money back. If I don't get below 70kg, the money will be donated to the political party I HATE the most.
And if that threat doesn't scare me into getting off my complacent @rse, I don't know what will.