so, overall, if no one bothers me, i will chill at home with my dog, watch movies, go to work and maybe go be social once a week. i'm a real homebody.
ive been in san diego for a while, made some friends but no *real* connections - certainly nothing like i have on the east coast. i left last year for 3 months (i'm a travel nurse) and came back because of my now boyfriend.
well, i've lasted a year, and i'm still feeling the same way. no real friends, i'm pretty bored and everything is super expensive.... so i told the bf a few days ago that if he wants this to be serious, he has to be willing to move with me because i am really not happy here and not making enough money to make ends meet. he didnt really give me much of an answer (but thats a whole nother level of stress).
so i'm starting to get back into my head "i'm leaving in 2 months when this contract is up" - so i'm saving money for a cross country drive, going to the gym twice a day (except on work days - but im going to change that!!) and i'm just getting my head back into the game.
he is out with his 19 year old friends drinking beer at band practice... i am sitting at home going back to the gym, again, eating a turkey wrap, not drinking, with a notebook out looking at my budget.
i just feel.... old, next to him. i feel like i dont have a life! i dont really WANT to go out, i'm perfectly happy doing this, but it feels like when someone else can see you not having a life, it makes you feel bad, you know?
i dunno what kind of an answer i am expecting from anyone since i didnt really pose i question, i just wanted to get that off my chest to my 3fc girls...