I haven't posted much in awhile... I have been struggling with my eating lately. Last month I gained ten pounds. I got on the scale this morning. I am up 5 pounds from the beginning if THIS month. THAT scared me. If I do not put the brakes on NOW, I am heading back to the same misery I just worked so hard to escape from.
I have been letting my emotions get the best of me, plus it is sheer laziness. I have slacked off eating veggies because they are annoying to prep and I have been letting myself have fast food like 3x a week. That alone will throw the weight on. Just laziness, and not wanting to deal with anything.
Yesterday I made a commitment to change just a few things to start. I decided to cut wayyy back on the sugar again (just a bit in my morning tea, and fruits as snacks). I also told myself, no fast food this week. I had to really fight myself not to stop for fast food on the way home last night at 7pm with tired cranky kids, but I made it home and ate pretty healthy.
I also had stopped exercising almost completely. I am turning that around also, and biked yesterday.
I am dealing with a lot of *junk* in my life. Husband being gone so now I am doing everything alone again. Plus I lost my health insurance and am desperately trying to find coverage. And I had my repeat PAP 2 weeks ago (I had a LEEP/large area of precancerous cells removed this spring and this is to see if it has come back) and they have had a delay in getting the results and I am ripping my hair out worrying about it. And I need a mammo because I had some bad spots on the last one and they need to check if they have grown... but without insurance... not happening. And my children, 3 of them have serious health issues that are stressing me out. Have to take the toddler to a children's hospital for some pretty invasive testing in a couple weeks. The kids do still have health insurance... I don't.
Okay, enough whining. I really need to firm up a daily strategy to get back on track. For now I am winging it.. just trying to eat healthier stuff, not buying junk, getting veggies and fruits into myself, and moving more.
Suggestions welcome. I really just needed to get this all out of my head and face it.