Okay, I know that I should just go down to the weight I'm comfortable at, as long as it is healthy.. but does anyone else do this?
I'm 19, and 5' 3".. I chose my goal based on what I considered "average" and on BMI. I really want to stay between 130-135, but when I'm looking through the forums and I see people who are at the same height as me with goals of 120 or less.. or people who are taller with the same goal as me or even less, I start to wonder if I'll be happy at 130?
I carry my weight all over, I have a bigger bust and my stomach has some definition (even at this weight, I can see the shape of my muscles although it is no where near flat). I KNOW I shouldn't be bothered by this and I shouldn't compare because everyone has a different body, but being that I've got.. about 15 more lbs to lose, I'm wondering if I'll still be.. "chubby".
I'm a size 11 right now in jeans, not a tight 11 but a comfortable 11 (in juniors) and I really wanted to get down to a size.. 7/8. Also with sizes, I mean, on top I have gone from a size XL/L to a M/L and I'm happy with that and I've lost a lot but it I only went from a size 13 to an 11 (took 25-30 lbs!)
So another thing I'm wondering is if I'm going to need to lose the same amount to get down to a 9.. but then again, I thought that as you lose more and more, each pound gets more and more noticeable so maybe that will mean sizes too?
It's weird, because I still want to keep my curves.. as I've lost weight, I've still kept my proportions so I know I'll keep them at 130, but I'm really wondering if it will be enough... I like my body for its curves, and my boyfriend has always loved my shape and he thinks I'm perfect at my weight right now (then again he has always said that..) and he is scared I'll get too skinny, and I don't want to get too skinny either but ahh! This is kind of.. frustrating.
Am I the only one?
I'm just.. a little scared I guess that I won't be happy at 130... I mean I'm still feeling good at my weight right now, and I still dress to compliment my body but I want to get down to a weight that I'm solid and happy with.
Does anyone else feel this way?