Hey guys, this is the first time I have posted in this thread. Usually I post in Atkins that is what I have been following as my plan. I started in May and I have lost about 10lbs since which is great but the last couple of weeks I have been way off track. I was doing so good, then we had a family function and I was like okay I will cheat today which I know is bad I need a life style change and then I think okay I will just eat right and watch my portions and calories but then it was my daughters birthday and I had too many pieces of Pizza and said okay I will start tomorrow. I always say I will start tomorrow and I always end up going off plan. I am feeling really depressed now because it's like I have no will power and I want to lose weight so bad. I feel so bad about the person I am now. I use to only way 140lbs in high school now at 20 only two years since high school and a baby I am 242. It makes me sick. I was 215 before I got pregnant and after I had her I never lost the baby weight. I work out almost everyday and I don't have a problem working out I like to work out but its just the food.
Yesterday I went to Kings Island and Amusement park around here and I wore Capris with my Tankini Bathing suit top and even though I know most people probably weren't every time someone looked at me, or laughed I thought they were making fun of me or looking at me and secretly talking to someone else like look at that girl. I felt that way the whole day and my boyfriend who I have been with since I was 14 who has never said he cares about my weight I felt like he even cared. We were in the pool and I went to go kiss him and he was like were in public don't do that. I know if I had been skinnier maybe he wouldn't care. He say's he doesn't but I feel like he does. I even went to get on a roller coaster and it was a tight squeeze and the roller coaster guy checking the lap bar was like can you push yours down alittle more and I couldn't. I feel so bad about my weight and I know I really need to do something about it but I don't feel like I have any support.