Lumifan said a lot of the things I feel, as well!
I am so confident now that I've lost weight and gotten toned/ripped. I stop traffic. I make people slow down their cars to stare. I get hollered, honked, and whistled at. Men yell obscene comments at me regarding my body (nice boobs, nice butt, nice legs, you have a HOT body, heyyy SEXY, etc). People stop to stare at me. I will walk by and people will turn their heads in the exact direction I'm walking in just to watch me from behind. I get treated with respect by men and women alike because I demand it. I'm decent looking, have great style (being able to shop anywhere because I'm no longer fat -a privelege I will NEVER take for granted again - allows this), crazy hair, and a very positive, outgoing sort of energy that equates to a dynamic, commanding presence.
The obscene comments, the being observed like I'm a piece of meat in a butcher shop, and the cat calls once bothered me (when I was previously thin in my teen years), but now, like Lumifan, I think to myself, "Well darn, I DESERVE IT! I bust my BUTT every DAY for this body. I make conscious choices to make myself as gorgeous and healthy as possible. CHECK ME OUT! This is my work of art."
MissHayes, you are not delusional.. just body dysmorphic
It's hard to grasp the concept that other people actually consider you to be thin when you're so used to being a bigger girl. But CONGRATULATIONS... you SHOULD feel AWESOME about yourself for transforming yourself into a healthier, slimmer version
Oh, and Apple, I also have always envied tall girls. I did print modeling in my teen years and wanted to do runway, but at 5'6" (5'7" at MOST in the morning), I didn't stand a chance. Tall girls have this gorgeous modelesque quality that I've always adored, but I guess the grass is always greener on the other side, huh?