Hey ladies...
Well, I have previously made the decision to lose weight. But in my first two weeks I have done nothing but dissappoint myself. I've given in to whatever it was that I wanted and I hate that. But I keep telling myself that tomorrow is a new day and I don't have to make the same mistake as I did yesterday. This is truly an ongoing battle for me. Everyday is. I read all the fitness magazines and I really want to go to the gym...my body is craving fitness I think. But everytime I say I'm going to the gym after work that little thing starts talking in my head and says "oh you can't go the gym, you're too tired". I know that it's so simple. All I have to do is tell myself I'm going to do it and then follow through with it.
I've also had another recent decision that I made. I want to be a deputy. Ever since I was a child I wanted to be in law enforcement. Of course the way my body is now I'd never survive the basic academy. But I want it so bad. I even have a friend who is a deputy who is willing to sponsor me and get me through the physical aspect of it. This is my goal. When I think that I want fast food or something ridiculously unhealthy, I need to remember that I'll never be a deputy because of this hamburger that I'm eating. That would make me sad.
So I just needed to get all this out. I know it's long and it doesn't really have anything encouraging in it. But I just needed to say what I needed to say. If you've read this far...thanks!