monday all,
it's been a rough one ALREADY. ds woke up happily enough, but the moment i got him out of his crib, he started screaming - and kept screaming for almost 45 minutes. wouldn't be held or comforted, didn't want to nurse, just walking around wailing and crying. we tried baby orajel, tylenol, nothing seemed to help. then, all of a sudden, it stopped, and he was back to his usual cheerful self. AAARGH! to all the veteran parents, WTF??? this is the third time in 4 months this has happened. does it get better when they can talk enough to tell you what's wrong?
had a weekend of more eating plan success than previously. amazing how much more successful i am when i've got a plan to follow. kidding, in fact. there's nothing amazing about it. right now i'm working on tuning out the sabotaging thought "i can't stay on plan every day for the rest of my life" and just think about staying on plan TODAY. i passed on some high calorie, non-nutritious junk at the baseball game saturday night, and am still feeling a little loss about not eating a whole soft pretzel, and then foregoing the cheese on a chicken cheesesteak as a healthier option than the pretzel. later, i didn't have any sweets when the idea came up. so today, still feeling this nagging "I WANT IT!" but not having it. instead, i'll go back to yoga, do my speed run in preparation for the next 1/2 marathon, and enjoy the fact that i've again dropped 3 of the 5 screwing-around-pounds i've been playing with for the last three months. who knows? maybe this is the last time i'll see those pounds. that would be nice. i'd be delighted to have a lower set of pounds to bounce around for a while. it'll take me a really long time to get to goal at this pace, but what the heck. it's not like i don't have the time.
heidi, i have to apologize for not answering your earlier questions about the monitor. someone else PMed me with questions and somewhere in my confused head i thought i'd answered you already! i might post something more general - i get a lot of questions about it. so, there are two companies that i know of that sell them: sensewear (also called body media) and bodybugg. it's exactly the same technology, but sensewear is the group that developed it. they've already released the 3rd version - bodybugg is releasing theirs in the fall. it's smaller and lighter - less noticeable under clothes. this was important to me when i first started wearing it, but i don't really care anymore. if people notice it and ask what it's for, i just tell them it's a calorie monitor, and usually they want to know where to get one too.
they only notice it though when i'm wearing short sleeves and you can actually see it. otherwise, it's hard to tell i've got it on.
it's wonderful, fabulous, really does what heartrate monitors or pedometers try to do, but not as well. i'm 100% accountable when it comes to movement and exercise, and it shows in how i've changed my thinking. i don't even think NO CHOICE about working out (most of the time, anyway.) it's gotten a lot more like teeth brushing. it's like letting the air out of the tires in terms of internal dialogue - it's just part of my day. it's also made me a lot more aware of how much sleep i am or am not getting, and i'm a lot more conscientious about getting to bed earlier. still have to work on being overscheduled to make that more automatic, but it's step #2 in the process.
the website has also been a really good tool for meal planning and logging. if i do my meal planning carefully and realistically, when it's time to log my meal, i just click a single button ("I ate my meal plan") and i'm done. so now i'm working on making it possible to just click that button more often.
the monitor was expensive, but it's the first thing to really make a difference (over the course of months) in getting me accountable. it's also made it easier to figure out how much i should realistically be eating. before, i tried a couple of diets that made me miserable, simply because most calculators grossly underestimate my metabolic rate. i wouldn't have known that without my monitor. when i was on the 6 week body makeover, i was ravenously hungry almost 24-7. the support person i IM'd told me it was because i had stretched out my stomach through overeating, wasn't drinking enough water, hadn't given it enough time, yada yada yada. i gave up on that (and three or four other perfectly good plans) because i wasn't getting enough food and it was too hard to be hungry all the time. i'm still trying to figure out what the right amount is to eat and still lose weight, but it's 100 times easier now i know more about my body.
off to yoga - sorry everyone i didn't have time to respond personally to because i ended up writing this novella!