Yesterday I learned how to take responsibily for MYSELF and MY actions(when it comes ot FOOD) ! Here is an excerpt from my blog to explain what happend:
Today, Rick and I went to see “The Happening”. Good movie! I didn’t get anything from the snack bar Rick got some ice cream and candy; he offered me some I said no. When he offered me some ice cream I wanted to KILL him!!! What’s WRONG with him? OF COURSE I WANTED SOME! DUH! Then he offers me some of his candy, it took A LOT of willpower to #1 say NO, #2 NOT take any…not even ONE little piece and #3 NOT slap him upside his head…WHAT WAS HE THINKING??? So here I am all bent out of shape thinking “How COULD he???” When I realized that I was being a brat. *I* am the one with the food addiction, *I* am the one who didn’t control my eating habits for YEARS, *I* am the one who gained all this weight, so why should I be mad at him for enjoying some candy and ice cream? That’s when I made a promise to myself not to begrudge my family the little treats and goodies that they indulge in every now and again, they don’t do it to slight me or make me mad or to tease me. So all-in-all I think I can classify today as a success!
So, there you have it! I'm really starting to realize that this REALLY is an addiction, just like drugs or alcohol...in a couple of other posts people have said we need to "dig deeper" to find out WHY we do what we do and treat food they way we do...I think I'm going to start working on that...starting RIGHT NOW!