Everytime I see how much I need to loose, I feel like throwing in the towel.
I have tripped and stumbled around for weeks, maybe even months. I talk to my boyfriend about reforming my habits, and then I forget. I make excuses. I get distracted. Another month rolls around and I'm like "oh yeah, there was that thing, I was doing...".
I don't know how to motivate myself properly, although this site has been a HUGE HELP.
I'm not doing any particular diet plan... I'm basically trying in incorporate more fruits and vegetables, stay away from processed and high carb food, and i'm working on giving up soda 100% (i'm already at 95% and am proud of my WATER intake) It's so hard. I spend 10 hours a day at work. I don't have a set schedule. It's hard because whatever I eat, I have a family which includes 3 other adults, all that have different tastes. The lack of support is felt keenly. So I come home, i'm tried. I want to make something fast and easy and I end up having to make 2 different meals for dinner. Mine and theirs. So it's easier just to eat theirs. Ugh.
Exercise is a whole other story. My job is 40-50 hours a week on concrete floors. I'm usually moving the whole time. When I get home I want to STOP MOVING. I want to sit down. I have NO energy to put into exercising. Obviously the walking I am doing constantly at work isn't enough to keep my heart rate in the right spot.
I have a lot of excuses and validations.
but. I have a lot of motivation and determination.
This initial getting started phase will not beat me. hehe.