I have been praying to God for a long while to bless me with a child. I have lost over 100 pounds today..and I am keeping it off, which is a major accomplishment for me.
I lost the weight with God's help..praying that he would take the strong desire to stuff myself all day long..and to let me experience TRUE hunger and stop when I felt fullness. He heard my prayer..and I no longer feel the need to stuff myself all day long.
I have been praying so hard to become pregnant..and I clearly hear/feel the holy spirit instructing me to completing GIVE up SUGAR. I have not been obedient. I eat some sugar at least four times a week. I don't understand why I can't stop?? I am so sad..and confused. I think I am rewarding myself in some silly way...because I have did so good not over-eating..Yes..I lost weight eating sugar..I often have cookies and milk for a snack..it is just that I will have four cookies, instead of whole sleeve..like I use to do.
I just want to be obedient..and eat no sugar..I know God is in full control, he is all-knowing. What if...just what if..I give up sugar..my hormones are more nomalized (dr. said that is my problem) and I become pregnant.
What is wrong with me? Anyone struggle with hearing that inner guide..and yet still be dis-obedient.