Well I began my journey again prior to christmas which was a mistake because we traveled home for the holidays and every time I travel away I go off routine and completely fail. I think I should quit traveling till I get this under control.
Then we came home and for the past 3 days prior to today I have done nothing but binge on pure junk food - accompanied with my husband who doesn't really have a big weight problem like I do.
Today I ate pretty well - and I got my butt to the gym. I usually can manage to go and do my workout and not really care what others might be thinking but whoaaa after not being there for 2 weeks and feeling like I had put on major weight in that time - I felt like everyone was looking at me thinking "god help me if i ever look like that".
And I just had to call and place my order for my bridesmaid dress for my sisters wedding in June. I ordered the dress too small - I always do and I always lose the weight - and I always put it back on after.
I guess all around I'm feeling pretty lousy.
I have been begging my husband to help me - to go to the gym with me, eat healthier foods with me, really be there to give me the push that I so desperately need and I find myself getting angry that he always says he will and then doesn't when in all reality he is too busy working and going to school to have to worry about helping me lose weight.
I know I have to do it for myself...no-one can do it for me....just wish I knew someone that has similar goals as me and to go work out with.
Sigh - thanks for letting me get it out.