I say there has to be
something causing this. Jillian Michaels talked about this on her radio show Sunday (Which I just listened to today, thanks to on demand internet). There is something, you just have to dig deep, drag it out, and beat it.
Could it be you are somehow afraid of failure? That you are getting more attention and it is uncomfortable for you? That you are so afraid, maybe so convinced, that you will put it all back on that somewhere inside you are going ahead to make that happen?
There is something behind this...throw the cheesecake away, get a notebook and start writing. Or go for a long jog in the morning and think hard. Whatever lets your mind go to work, get busy figuring this out. I really, really believe there is something there you just haven't uncovered yet.
I have had binges I thought were for no reason at all, but I write my thoughts out and end up writing things I didn't even know I felt. i am petrified of attention turned toward me and tend to self-sabotage once others start to notice...thus why I knocked off 30 lbs, just enough to get comments and questions, then started putting it back on. I uncovered that after a very long binging week and it has been different for me ever since.
we can do this...that cheesecake is NOT what you need.