Ok... I'm having a major depresses moment. Yes, I know I have a problem! But I haven't seen a therapist yet... My child keep me sane! She is the most important thing in my life. And everything I do is for her. So I could never do anything really bad, but I'm having major bad thoughts right now.
I feel I can't control Anything in my life right now... especially MY WEIGHT!
I have been on WW for 3 years... This Jan will be the beginning of my 4th year. ! year weight loss, 2 years maintenace. I am 5'5" and weigh normally less than 125, Today I stepped on the scale I WAS 127.2, naked. Last night at WW they WEIGHED ME IN AT A WHOPPING 129!!! I feel disgusting. I have been stayed OP and even started walking on the treadmill 30 min a night.
I gan't believe it just keeps going up, how much longer before I'm right back up there?! I didn't eat this morning, I know THAT'S BAD! But I can't.
I'm also smart enough to know this isn't all about my weight.
I want them to put me away somewhere. I'm tried! I'm tried of dealing with everything in my life and I'm tried of watching my weight, espescially watching it go up, when I think I've been so good. I don't want to think about it anymore, but I can't stop. I can't give up. This is my life. I CAN'T BE FAT!!
INTERVENTION!! Where do I get some. Where do I go?
Thanks for reading my ramblings, and if this is you, know you aren't alone.
please let me know I'm not alone.
Cyndie