I feel pretty alone when it comes to being able to confide and share my feelings with friends or family. Over two years ago, I confided to my mom that I thought my marriage was in big trouble; and then when I was given the prescription for antidepressants and I shared my feelings about how upset I was about that, she started talking about the problems she was having.
The one time I told a close friend that I had suicidal feelings, but was afraid to tell anyone previously, she just about took my head off in chastising me. It made me resolve to stay away from her with my problems.
My husband has a very hard time with telling me what i want to hear What I want is to have him ask me maybe on a weekly basis or so, 'so how are you doing'? to let me know that he acknowledges that there are times that I can't control my negative feelings and that I want some extra attention.
I went to a therapist once, and even though I cried the entire hour, it felt so good to be able to tell an inpartial, trained person what I felt. What kept me from continuing to see him was that it would cost me over $100 a session; we have a huge deductible so it would be cost prohibitive.
gosh, just talking here helps.