You know when you watch those news shows where some skinny, hot b!$%h dons a "fat" suit and they videotape the reactions? You know how she always says she feels invisible? That is how I constantly feel.
I am so sick of being ignored by people. Am I really that unattractive? Am I really that boring? Just once I would like a salesperson to look me in the eye and ask if I need help, and then actually help me (and not at Lane Bryant). Just once I'd like to go out with my best friend (who, I know, is beautiful and funny) and have just a fraction of the attention. Just once I want people to care about how I feel.
When I lose all my weight and become the skinny, hot b!$%h, will people treat me differently? Probably and then I'll resent it because I'm the same person I was-at least on the inside. Right now, that thinking just makes me want to stay fat because I'd rather be ignored that be treated as a human being by fake-@$$ people.
I'm sorry for the long rant, but I feel better getting it out. Anyone else feel invisible?