*slink slink slink*
After a fabulous weekend of eating too much (really too hard to remember it all, but it was lots of junk), I tried to get back OP yesterday.
B-light multigrain english muffin, 2 T lf cream cheese, 1 T sf jam, 1 c. skim milk, coffee w/ 1 T h&h
S- small banana
L - 2 slices whole wheat bread, homemade egg salad - 2 eggs, 1/2 T light mayo, 1 t mustard, celery; carrots & cucumber slices
S - ff yogurt, apple, almonds
and here's where it went downhill..."nibbles" (probably equating a whole piece) of homemade mocha cheesecake discovered in the fridge at work
gym - lifting 50 minutes
5:15 meeting
D - large greens salad, 2 T Ken's lite Caesar dressing, 2 oz. bs chicken breast
gym - powerwalking on the treadmill - 5 miles (guilt over the cheesecake, but apparently not enough guilt to make me RUN)
D/S - homemade Pumpkin Protein bar, 1 cup skim milk - this should have been it for the day
TV snack crap - ~ 3/4 cup fruit sorbet, entire bag of 94% ff popcorn, bites of pasta from my roommates' dinner that they offered to me, 1/2 cup fiber one...
today (eaten):
B - light multigrain english muffin, 2 T lf cream cheese, 1 T sf jam, 1 c. skim milk, coffee w/ 1 T h&h, 1/2 piece of the mocha cheesecake mentioned yesterday
(not eaten):
S- small banana
L - 2 slices whole wheat bread, homemade egg salad - 2 eggs, 1/2 T light mayo, 1 t mustard, celery; carrots, cucumber slices, celery
S - ff yogurt, apple, walnuts
gym - lots of cardio, abs
D - ?
I know this is not a rant thread, but i am SO MAD AT MYSELF. I stayed OP for 3 1/2 weeks. I was trying to do it right, not cut calories too much b/c I get so hungry and binge if I cut too much, worked out hard, didn't drink any alcohol, and I had lost 3 1/2 pounds. And I binged anyway, all weekend, and all of the weight is back (this isn't water weight). And I am still eating crap today. Why can't I control myself? I started putting this extra above maintenance weight on last holiday season, and I can't control myself to get rid of it, and the holidays are coming again. Am I going to add another 10 lbs this year?
So disappointed in myself. *hanging head, throwing hands in despair*
*slinking away now*