Hey, everyone. I just wanted to rant a bit.
My sister, who's a year younger than me, had always been the skinny one. Always. I think for her being the thin sister was a security blanket. She compliments me on my weight loss, but she's become strange about clothes. She's given me some hand-me-down jeans that she "didn't like" anymore (I think they were too small...), but if I touch any of the clothes she has in her drawers--she gets really up tight about it. We're wearing the same size pants for the first time in our lives.
So, the other day I'm down in her room talking to my cousin, Ashley (who's been living downstairs with my sister for the summer) and we're talking about Sara's insecurities, about weight loss...and Ashley says she wishes Sara would lose weight the healthy way, gesturing to a bottle of Zantrex 3 on my sister's dresser.
I guess my sister's been taking Zantrex 3 for a week now...and for some reason, that makes me really angry. Maybe I'm starting to get nervous that she'll be the skinny one again...I think that could be part of it. Another part of it is that I've never resorted to weight loss pills to try and lose weight...I'm not sure that they even work. But what if they do for my sister? If they do and she wants me to compliment her or be positive about her weight loss, I don't think I can be. How can I say to her, after a year and a half struggling against my habits and working hard to lose 30 pounds, "great job!" after taking weight loss drugs to do it??
I don't think I can...and because I know my sister, she'll probably really make a huge issue about not having to do ANYTHING to lose the weight. After she turned 21 this summer, she went on a week-long booze binge. She was trashed--severely--every night for almost a week and barely ate at all. She lost almost 10 pounds that week and was flaunting it--like her dehydrated body (I'm sure that most of that "weight loss" was dehydration) was some sort of victory or something to be proud of. "Oh, well I lost almost 10 pounds this week from drinking! Seems like the way to go!"