Hi guys-
I'm kinda bummed out right now. There's this guy who I speak with semi-regularly each week because his company does business with ours. We always flirt and such.
So one of the guys I work with knows I like his friend. Today his friend stopped by--- and when he left the guy I work with was like, “way to drop the ball…”.. and he went into some speech about how I should just ask him out if I like him.
I have asked out several guys before (when I was about 50 pounds thinner than I am now) and usually ended up at least going on a date or two. I told the guy I work with that I usually try to get a general sense if someone is interested before I ask them out. He said that I was just playing it safe—and that’s no way to live and such. His speech was motivating.
So I thought, what the heck, and I contacted my crush and asked him out.
He said, “Thanks. You’re very sweet. I am so flattered that you would ask me out. I am sort of seeing someone right now though and I don’t think they would dig it. I appreciate the offer though. Maybe some other time. No worries.”
To me—that seems like a very nice, polite way of saying, “Heck No! Not in a million years.” I dunno, maybe it bothers me more that he said no because of my insecurities. I have not seriously dated someone since I was 18 (I’m 24) Yea.. 6 years!! I went on a couple dates since then (I can count them on one hand) but it never went any farther. I have not really been looking to date anyone and always give myself the, “maybe when I feel better about myself—I wouldn’t wanna date me right now either” kinda speech. But somehow I slowly found myself with a crush on someone.. it was weird. I dunno. I guess I just feel kinda stupid. I went into the bathroom at work and wanted to cry. I looked in the mirror. It’s no wonder he said no. Uh, how depressing.