Wow, I just jumped on the scales and saw a number I can't believe!!!!! I've ballooned up to 323.8 lbs., and yet I can still convince myself "i'm not that big" OMG!!!!
The reason for the TERROR, is because when I hit 300, I did a "lifestyle change" and dropped 15 lbs, but about 4 months later had gained it back, PLUS 8 lbs....so at 308 I started again, and then hit 318 about 4 months later.....at 318 went down to 311 and then now I'm up to 323....
You see where I'm going with this....i'm terrified if I try again, I'll end up at 340, 350, 700000000!!!! where can it end??? besides me being dead on a stretcher of course!!!
sorry for the melodramatics, but I'm freaking out here....
I gave myself a stern talking to and I just have to admit that "diets" don't work for me, denying everything doesn't work for me, fooling myself can't work for much longer. The clothes I've worn during summertime in years past are so tight and uncomfortable now, and there aren't too many sizes BIGGER to go!!!
So for July, I'm gonna do the following and see where I am at the end of it.
* no mcdonald's
* take lunch to work
* 3 meals and 2 snacks.
* a little walking
and I'm thinking a little THERAPY might not come amiss!!! I wish I could say I had something horrific happen to me as a kid, but I was always loved, happy, energetic, enthusiastic, I'm not depressed, have lots of friends, no trauma..... I'll report in and I'd like to hear from anyone in the same boat!
thanks,
tt